Friend Ethics.

Last week was one of introspection and self discovery. I discovered friends that were there for me when I needed them and found self worth.

This week is also an introspective one, but for different reasons. Self worth has remained though with actions and opinions that I’ve held and maintain has made me feel isolated from people. When something happens that challenges the ethics one holds, tough decisions must be made. Is this the right decision? Can I handle the consequences for believing what I do and can I go through with it? Being able to handle it will remain to be seen, but I have gone through with what I’ve thought was the right decision for me. There were no rash decisions everything was thought out in advance. Emails and communications from two people I’m unhappy with (though one person is significantly poorer in expressing himself) & advice with friends who do have different opinions and takes depending on how much they know and what their personal ethics are have helped considerably.

From these and lots of thinking on my part, I have made my decision, a tough one considering the people involved who I think are amazing. To break away from two such people is one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make, but at the end of the day what they have done and continue to do goes against my friendship ethics. Malicious intent or not it goes against what my beliefs as to what friends are and for that I cannot have anything to do with them. This will and has also impacted friendships with other people who disagree with me or think I’m being childish and stupid. It has also meant that some of the friends from the previous week and not there for me so much this week. Friends should not take sides, but I fear in some ways this has happened.