Shuffle

Two of diamonds
Seven of clubs
Ace of hearts

A random hand found along the way

Mostly

They come
but mostly go
Living on cheap food
cigarettes and alcohol
Scented with accents
with time to kill
and no idea where they’re going

Vervacious

Close to the city and closer to work on Errol street, walk past the pretentious Rubicon and right on the corner is Verve, my new cafe!

You look great when I’m fucked up

Some people should know better and knowing they don’t always doesn’t make me feel like a better person or like I’ve won anything. I just feel weary, but with people like the ones I drank with last night I maintain that life is good.

Special Guest Star

The old lady and looked down, contemplative or just avoiding attention. A white T-shirt, red cardigan with black pants, her profile was ancient though she appeared to have a youthful curiosity with the objects in her hands. Fidgeting with her phone and turning it over looking up to see if the train had arrived at her station. The grey hair was not distinguishing, but that may have had something to do with her slumped shoulders and the defeated way she went about her business.

The book was in my lap forgottern and threatening to fall to the ground. Without thinking I kept saving the novel from slipping and losing my place. I saw the lady as she finished waddling over to her seat, in her fifties or sixties she was overweight with a squashed pug face. Unattractive, but she caught my interest.  She looked like nobody else on the train, just as set apart from the trash, the students and the people talking shit adjacent from her, then I was.

For this one moment she became a character surrounded by extras . In that time until disembarkation I wondered what had made her so down and whether there was something that could save her, if at all she needed saving, or could just make her smile. Before leaving she looked up with an expression of anger which could have been coldness, or just the default look she had when alone. That’s all up to me isn’t it? To translate her presence and impact with my experience and imagination. The curiosity I took in this minor character in my life is not surprising as I look for isolation as I perceive it in people and things. I’m not like that, not really its just relatable, but any such notions of isolation I have are completely self imposed.

What up?

Would Like to thank T and D which is generally what I like to call them and damn yes they can be pretty much named so everyone knows they have my gratitude. Great dudes and life would be a lot less fun without em.

Toll

Its often surprising how hard the job can get sometimes. If you’re on a survey that can get people with bad experiences it can make a shift tough, but because of the infrequency of those calls its usually no sweat. On a job like Work Safe and Family Pathways you may get a couple of bad calls over the course of the week, nothing major. Then sometimes you’ll get one of those days when half or more of the surveys you do are bad. Today was one of those days and I finished work emotionally drained and saddened at the plights of some of the things people have to go through . Most of the people seemed relieved to have spoken to somone and I just wish I didn’t have to take the tone of sympathetic neutrality. Appearing to care while sounding like a pro with questions to finish. I’m not allowed to do much more then that and its frustrating, but at the same time satisfying to give people an outlet even if just for 15 to 20 minutes at a time.

Vibrations

Had a really good conversation with two people from work tonight, with just the three of us it was a good chance to talk. The topic of vibes really struck a cord and already my mind is turning to figure out how to use it.

REPORT!

I’ve been a bit quiet then is usually the case and for no particuler reason. I’ve filled three quarters of my not book with completed, half completed pieces and bits and bobs which will surface. Things that will be about my trip ala Bane and a piece I finished today. I don’t usually write prose, but this came out in three paragraphs so It’ll come up soon as I polish it. Theres plenty of stuff to transcribe into the Experiment book which I’m happy for.

Verge

There is something around the corner and like everything in the future I’ve got no idea what it could be. Took a walk in the drizzle in full uniform hoping the clouds would pour its contents upon me in the hopes of recapturing a night a night years past. A night on my bike in the rain with a reckless disregard and an embrace for the water.

Didn’t quite happen tonight and its left me feeling that something big going to happen. Can’t really explain it.