Incision

Keep things to a minimum and focus.

Watchtower

Distance is a funny old thing

Denial

On the verge of sleep I had an idea, but I choose to sleep rether than write it down. I don’t have many regrets, but this is one.

Goin back north

Booked my flight last night for the second trip to Brisbane. I’ll be there for another 2 weeks from the 30th of May till June 14. I’d have gone sooner, but I need to save some cash. God I can’t wait to get out of Melbourne.

Quiet Noise

I enjoy the quiet noise of North Melbourne especially in Errol street. To get some writing done I leave for work earlier and sit outside Verve (the new reg) with a latte and finally get to working on some ideas that have been bubbling for some weeks now.

The awesome sauce

Feelin good! I think the sickness did me a favour as has the diet Dad and the Mich are on. I’m dry more often then not and have cut down drastically on coffeeand cheese. The weight is going down aswell! Heeel yeah.

Not down with the sickness

Not much happening this week, been crook with a bad throat and a cold. Its good though because I’m rarely sick so hopefully I’ve got it out of my system for a good 8 or 9 months

Momentary relapse from reason

I awoke to the sounds of yelling my sister coming down to avoid the awkwardness. More pills were found and Dad blew his gasket, like me he is as subtle as a sledge hammer. Both my sister and Dad left for a bike ride and sleep eluded me. Going to get my coffe Mum cornered me telling me it was just a relapse and promises it won’t happen again. I wish I could believe her.

Blood

The photos showed everything and I seethed. Empty packets of oxycontin and codiene. It might be a sign for why things were worse then they should have been or why she went back to the hospital so soon, feeling sick and vomiting. The Doctor knows the history yet prescribed the medication anyway and I’m angry. It’ll be handled I’m told, but if not there will be a storm coming. Now I do as told and wait.

Dammit I’m never too drunk for that

Wednesday and Thursday was great, much booze was consumed and it was great to see some of the Brissy peeps and have an adventure. I’m a bit frustrated though okay firstly I pick up a girl through a mutual friend last weekend, too drunk to….. And Wednesday with the American girl she thought she could go toe to toe drinking with me, but became legless and went home. Dammit! Making out is fun but shit twice in 5 days potential action turns into them getting their booze on too much? Don’t girls know how to handle alcohol!

The other thing is my feeings toward Melbourne haven’t changed, I’m not sure what I can do to become interested in it again.